kvetching

Kristi, excuse me, Mrs. Stephen Craig Taylor asked me if I was still dating that internet chick. She, of course, was referring to mi corazón and the only reason why she calls her that is because that's how I showed them mi corazón's pictures.

I told Kristi that she passed away and it completely shocked her. I gave the abbreviated version and answered a few questions (basic 5 W's and H stuff) and she ended it all with: "you don't talk about these things. it's like you live a secret life."

right. maybe it's because i just don't feel that comfortable with the spoken word. i believe that the written version carries more weight, and it also has its drawbacks. nonetheless, it all comes down to preferrence.

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had a conversation with somebody about brushing teeth, of all things. they said that to their opinion, the more time you spend with even the most common things, the less chance you are the cause of something that may be extremely bad. the example given was that even an extra down stroke on the brushing of one's teeth may have already prevented a major traffic pile up.

that may be the case, but what if it was meant to happen to you? no amount of up or down strokes of the toothbrush will change anything if you just keel over.

at least you've got pearly whites at the pearly gates....

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i'm going on vacation in a week. i'm hanging out in gotham, check on my buddy's new pad and hang out there until he kicks me out, or my vaycay's done. i haven't even thought of what to bring or start packing, maybe because i'm trying to psyche myself out to go running in and around Central Park above all things, just how mi corazón may have. it's her city, afterall. i might even try to hang out in places that she mentioned. i'm bracing myself for a possible bout of depression, not that i've stopped doing a fraction of that already. it's tough, but she'd want me to be happy.

well, there goes those suicidal thoughts out the window....

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one last note to mi corazón's younger sibling: you asked me once why she did those things and why she put up with it all. i believe that the short answer is that because she felt that it was expected of her. i know that it doesn't answer anything at all, but that's what she told me before when i asked her. i wish that there was more substance in what she said as well, but we're both stuck in the same quandary. hit me up when you're back. maybe we can possibly meet up in gotham and i can get that letter she left for me. else, i'll just have to talk your brother into meeting up.